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A unique's person unique way of thinking

"Think outside the box" - I might have gone a bit overboard with the outside part.

I find peace in writing. My mind is an infinitely racing endless pit of open space.
; A person who thinks all the time, has nothing to think except for endless thoughts.

But that is not it. I see a difference in an overthinker and a thinker. They are 2 different things.

Even if this may sound arrogant. I am not fulling my satisfaction or putting myself high up there.
It is just me. That is the true essence which build me. I like writing, I like thinking. I find peace in it.
Maybe it became that way since I haven't yet found a person whom I can give the same value.

It started from a small journey which began with a little kid me along with a gifted diary and a pencil.

I still remember, the first thing that I had written in it.

Perhaps this is how sub-minded people like me keep their composure. They have their own hobby which they don't really talk about.
Perhaps this how great listener are made.

I find peace in writing because I unlike any camera can. I am able to record my mind while being at it.
One day on a cold night. I found myself writing, I checked the clock, it had climbed 4 hours in time and I haven't realized it until my eyes spoke to me.

Maybe it is about me thinking all the time, but for me, every part of me talks to every part of it.
Maybe it is a thing which I picked while writing so much.

I am my own person, I can keep my heart shut at times, I can keep my mind shut. But know, once I am shut. You may not find me again.

I am my on person^

In a sense, you could use the phrase "nonchalant" but I do feel things. It's just that I have less knowledge on how to react to them.

I am a type of "sarcastic" type of person if you'd like to call it.

You could use a phrase like "being nonchalant" but deep down. It's not all the about all the not caring mind. Maybe if you try enough. You may find me again.

Sometimes I say I will leave, as a joke. But actually leave. It don't leave because I'm tired of anything. I leave to see what person2 does in that time.

I may say I don't care. But if you heard those words from me. Know that I care for 'persona variable' enough to have told them that.

For me, my words are everything. If my mouth speaks of something. I am responsible.

I have not betrayed, have no abandoned, not forgotten, not leave out, not keep in the dark.
But I what I can say is, I was.. betrayed.. abandoned.. forgotten.. left out.. kept in the darl.

All the things in life. I may have not forgotten all the scars. But my scars hold no grudges.

In modern generation lingo, you may call it "chill guy". But there's more to it that meets the eye.

Though, the scars have no grudges, doesn't been it isn't bruised. They do hurt. I am a human after all.

Created: 2025-01-22 10:35 PM